Rethinking my life

Well this is going to be a perety sobering post. I am rethinking my direction in life. I have for a while been very unsure how my desire to fit counseling into my life would work out. I have also been seriously shaken out of my life of dream land as a single guy. I have for a long time been thinking that I can go to any church and handle what ever they give me since I was a single guy. I also thought that a long time in seminary is not big deal because I am single. Well... I do not see full time ministry as a counselor going to work in my life. The reality of such a job in a church that would allow me to just do counseling is rather slim to none and to also do counseling on the side in an outside clinic would take more time, money and school. After already been in seminary 5 year (2 already and 3 to finish a MACC). I am not into taking a long time to do a bunch of classes that I feel is not very beneficial to me as a counselor which my seminary requires me to do. I also am thinking about how to feed my family... on a pastor's salary it will be very hard. I must be honest with myself and know that when I get out the churches that will want me will be small and pay little to nothing. I cannot feed my family on that. I am not willing to do that anymore. I know that if I start in a counseling practice outside the church it will be small and a bit of a hastle to say the least to get people to pay me. (And that is if the church will let me counsel on the side!) I am very happy with helping out in the counseling ministry that i am in now, all I need to do is be able to have my thursday nights free. I am thinking it is time to start looking for some other job out in the real world. I am beginning to ask some other folk that work in a more corporate business setting about other possibilities for myself. It would be fun to hear what you all think. -----Russ